sharing.

it has been proven time and time again that i am the world's worst sharer.
but today i found a gem...
a gem that had to be shared.

whilst reading one of my old journals i found something.
i am not sure if it is a poem or a song, but it is priceless.

"see you hurt" by the 10 year-old anne trent-

i heard the word
i was scared as ever
you are away but not the kind like a trip to florida,
but somewhere you never wanna be
cuz i see you hurt

you were banged up like an old trash can
lookin' at me like never before
but it doesn't matter cause i see you hurt...

and that hurts me.


...
WHAT!

i hope my sharing has made you feel better about your ten year-old self.

forfeit.

i mentioned in my 50 things post that i was not going to cut my hair this summer.
well...

i forfeited.

purple whaaat!

purple HAIR.

anyone that knows me knows that i love everything purple.
anyone that knows me very well knows that i have wanted purple in my hair since i was like 13.
my mom has said no to this every time i brought it up.
UNTIL!
my mom met my brother's girlfriend, and loved her.
this girl happened to have a blue streak in her hair.
my mother caved.
(hats off to you, cam cam.)

so, this past week my friend sam and i decided that we were finally going to do it!
and we did!














i realize that you cannot see my purple hair very well in this picture. i was wearing a purple shirt at the time i took it, and have been sick since i took it. (no one wants a picture of that.)

so there is my one and only rebellious thing that i will ever do.

50.

i know that all of my devoted readers are just dying to hear more about my riveting life.

problem. when i went to write a blog today i realized that i didn't have anything to write about, as my life has not been very interesting lately.

but! if you wanted to know 50 very random things about myself then it is your lucky day!

here we go...

1-   every summer I go through a phase of hating my long hair so I chop it all off, and then I hate my short hair even more than I hated my long hair. So this summer I am breaking my own tradition and keeping my hair long. We’ll see how long it lasts.

2-  My back teeth don’t touch. I can still chew and jazz, but they don’t touch.

3-   I am going to byu-idaho in the fall. I am… a little less than excited but we will see what happens.

4-    My immune system is that of a small fetus.

5-   In third grade we had a store where you could buy things with fake money that you earned from being good. The very first time we went to the store I saw a scissor kit (that might be a lie, I’m still not sure what it was) and immediately wanted it ridiculously bad, but it was $100. So I saved my fake money all semester until at the last week of the semester I had $98. I told my teacher this, and being the awesome teacher that she was, she slipped me two dollars. Sweet mercy I had enough money! While waiting for my turn to go into the store, I saw someone buy my precious scissor kit, and who was it? My arch nemesis. Unbridled rage. I still want that scissor kit.

6-   I have wanted to go to paris, france since I was about 10. My room is paris themed, I have a giant Eiffel tower on my wall and I took French in high school so that when I finally got there I would have some idea of what people were saying. Which is weird because…

7-    -The most important boy to me was called to paris for the next two years on his mission for the church of jesus Christ of latter-day saints. He will return in may of 2014. I miss him more than anything, but I am so proud of him for choosing to serve the Lord.

8-    -I am not an outdoorsy person. I’d rather not hike or camp or any of that jazz. That being said… if I am going to camp I am going to do it all out. I will not going to shower, do my hair or my makeup while camping.  That’s ridiculous.

9-   -I am heinously judgmental. I’m working on it.

10-I am a member of the church of jesus Christ of latter-day saints and I love it more than anything.

11- All of my freshman and sophomore years everytime it turned 11:11 I had to close my eyes and make a wish.

12- I am not athletic. At all. And it used to bug me so bad that I wasn’t, because I felt like I wasn’t good at anything. Until…

13- I realized that my talent is to be with children. It probably helps that I am still 5 at heart.

14- I couldn’t eat chic fil a  for like 6 years after I threw it up. To make it better I had the pink lemonade with that chic fil a so it was bright pink chicken chunks coming back up! Yum. But I love it now!

15-I love rainy overcast days. If I could move to Washington, I would.

16-I am insanely sarcastic.

17-I wear glasses. And they are trifocals. I am an old woman.

18- I love fortune cookies! First, they taste wonderful. Second, those ridiculous fortunes inside are seriously the best. When I grow up I want to write the fortunes inside of fortune cookies. My all-time favorite fortune- “if you are bored, get a cat.”

19-I hate cats. It doesn’t help that I am allergic to them. So no, chinese philosopher, I will not be investing in a cat when I am bored.

20- I cannot for the life of me get a friggen tan. Unbridled rage.

21-When I was little I would practice modeling in the mirror for hours. Then I grew up and realized the fact that I was 5 feet tall totally shafted that dream over.

22-I genuinely love super hero movies, but can I just rant about green lantern? It  was HEINOUS.

23-I have toddler hands. Seriously, they are ridiculously small.

24-I have a huge mouth. Like literally, it is large.

25-If you are around me for very long, you will start to say things that I say. ‘good gravy’ ‘mother of pearl’ and ‘heinous’ are a few favorites in my vocabulary.

26-I did not get the Martha stewart gene. I am not crafty.

27-When I start getting grumpy and sad I listen to spoon’s ‘don’t let it get you down.’ If you have not heard that song, listen to it here. (please ignore the footage from the random people, it was the only decent copy youtube had of the song.)

28-I sing obnoxiously loud in the car.

29-I wish I was really good at photography. I have a theory that if I get a really nice camera I will get really good and want to take pictures all the time. We will see.

30-I used to be really cool in elementary school. I had my posse and we always sat at the peanut butter tables (meant for children with peanut butter to eat away from those with allergies) even though none of us ever had any peanut butter. REBELS.

31-There was a really cool girl that I really wanted to impress in the seventh grade. Her name was Rachel. One day I was hangin around at the park by my house when lo and behold Rachel showed up! I got up the courage to go over and talk to her and we started talking about gymnastics. I told her that I could do a bridge and she asked me to show her. Well I laid down on the grass and then pushed up into a bridge. I got up to find out I had laid down in the largest pile of dog poop known to man. Rachel and I did not end up becoming friends.

32-On the first day of sixth grade I wore a velvet jumpsuit. It started out really dark pink at the bottom and faded to really light pink at the top. I was, in fact, the bomb diggity.

33-In fifth grade I got a love letter from… an interesting fellow. It read: “you are the apple of my eye, you are the biggest diamond in the treasure chest, you are all I think about. Do you like me back?” and there was a ‘yes’ box, a ‘maybe’ box and a ‘no’ box for me to check. Not wanting to hurt said fellow’s feelings I wrote in underneath “my mom won’t let me like anyone until I am 16.” Bold faced lie. Sorry, Sheldon.

34-I love pickles.

35-My mom made me give away my polly pocket collection for a young women’s garage that raised money for camp. A little bit of me died.

36-My hairband just broke. Blast.

37- I love music and I have very diverse tastes. I will completely own up to having backstreet boys on my ipod as well as the beatles, young the giant, wilco and spoon.

38-I rear ended one of my really good friends about nine months ago. (sorry again casey.) it was really icy so I could not stop. Anyways, every time I drive now I stop way behind other people because I’m terrified of getting in another accident.

39-I hate auto correct.

40-Anytime I say anyways (with an s), which is always, my missionary, dallin, just about has a fit of rage because apparently it isn’t proper. Pshhh.

41-There was a really cute boy in kindergarten named zack. Boy did I have my eye on him! That is, until my best friend tackled to the ground and proceeded to SMOOCH him. Oh the rage.

42-I always use burts bees chapstick.

43-I secretly always wanted a furby.

44-I played the French horn all throughout middle school. I quit after realizing that I would have to march with a flugle horn- those things are huge.

45-I love long car drives- but they have to be with the right people.

46-I no longer have an appendix.

47-Or wisdom teeth.

48-Or a middle name. OH WAIT. I never had that. Thanks, mom and dad.

49-I love whales. I think this stems from my brothers calling me a ‘beached whale’ for a very long time. After a while I just started to like whales and feel bad when they were beeched.

50-I got a C one quarter in the fourth grade in social studies because I couldn’t memorize all of the states and their capitals. My memory is non-existent.  

wow.
that was a lot.
if you are still reading this, i applaud you.
well, there it is.
that is a little bit of anne.

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why not?

while going through my old cds today i found a gem. radio disney ultimate jams. of course upon finding this, i immediately popped it into my cd player. the very first song to play was the horrendous 'why not?' by the even more horrendous hilary duff. i quickly changed the cd to the next song, 'dig it' from the movie holes- which i can rap to surprisingly well. if you haven't heard the song why not, listen to it here.

if you listen to the song you will find hilary duff's voice echoing in your head the rest of the day (sorry, should have forewarned you). as i spent the day trying to fill my head with better music her voice kept coming back to me asking me 'why not?' and i started to think about a lot of things that i had never done and soon i was asking myself why i hadn't done most of those things. i had legitimate reasons for not doing most of the things i want to do- for instance, i do not have the funds to get my own personal spider-man outfit made. one day though... one day.

one thing that i have always wanted to do was start a blog. i love reading other people's blogs but always thought that i had nothing interesting to put in a blog, and i probably still don't, (later blog posts will be much more interesting- promise) but here i am starting a blog.

why not?